Jul 12, 2010 (7:11 PM)
I miss him. I think of him almost everyday now and then. I scream, laugh and feel the pain in myself when ever I think of him. The feeling is there but the reason isn't. I don't know what he's thinking but I know it's impossible between us. It makes my head spin tremendously. I will try to forget about him. He's not my cup of tea as well as I am. What for? My heart kinda weaken whenever I look at his photos think about how he hugged and made me laugh and how he annoy me. And now it's all the pain that's coming into me.. How I wish that it's possible between us, but it isn't at all. You've saved me many times, I have to save myself this time. I am in so much pain, lost. I am lost. The only thing I can do now is to act like nothing had happened. I am sorry to myself and not him.
I was really high in the morning. Then vomited 3 times. Didn't sleep last night but I don't feel tired at all. I wanna play poool!
