Thinking about him now... I can't sleep. I stink. Going to school in another hour or so. I can't sleep properly for more then 5 hours nowadays.. Anyone know what's wrong with my body? Well I doubt so cos I don't even know what happened to me.. It's just very uncomfortable. Sigh. So many things happening recently ever since the 3 of us got back together. Knowing each other is fate but screwing up one another isn't. I really wanna let the both of you know that we really shouldn't take things for granted. The way the 3 of us is now isn't like the past anymore although all of us have decided to forget about the past but memories are always memories, we will still remember them till the 3 of us grow old. Like we said, forget about the past (bad memories) is it really possible if we're behaving like this, now? Talking to each other like we're just normal friends as if we don't understand each other at all? In fact, we understand most things about each other even more then our parents could, that's why we're treating each other like this. Maybe I'm too sensitive. To me, my friends are almost close friends or rather best friends. And 'sisters' means more. And we shouldn't talk to each other in the way as if we are cautious against each other. No matter how many lies we've all lied to each other, I know that I won't hurt any of you and the same for the both of you physically or mentally. It's like my Chinese suck and the both of you still speak to me in English even though you both are better in Chinese. And I always use 'singlish mix Chinese' for the both of you to understand, sometimes. Compromise.

I'm not gonna talk about giving up on you anymore. The more I say or rather think about letting it go, it means the more I'm holding onto it.

Gonna take a shower and Geraldine will study hard!

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