I hate people hiding things from me especially from my bestfriends. Totally unexpected. Do you know exactly how much it have hurt me? So badly and you know it. I was telling myself not to cry just now, I controlled until you left. Total lost of words. Was it my fault for feeling sad? I didn't even blame you but you left in that manner. I hate this feeling. Why is everyone trying to hurt me? You could have told me first but you didn't. I don't see the point of crying but I'm just crying stupidly in front of my laptop now. I've cried too many times this month. And it's fucking painful. I'm not as strong as you. I would rather choose not to see that message if I could now.