Changes

2010-08-24T18:44:00.004+08:00

Moved to www.lessthanhappyy.blogspot.com

See you there cupcakes.
Even though I love this page more. See how it goes.

2010-08-22T12:28:00.001+08:00

I HATE HER. FUCKING BITCH.

Lets see who have the last smile :) Don't ever ask me for anything be it help, cigg, or anything. NOTHING. Cos I won't fucking give a shit to you from now on. I'm gonna let you regret what you said. Shan't waste my time on you and use my time on more usefull stuff, you crazy piece of shit. Happy for a moment and crazy for another. Do you have split personalities kind of shit? I think you need a check up. Anyway, don't worry cos I will leave this fucking house as soon as Im able to -you think i love living here with you? No, I hate all of you. Problematic bunch of relative I have. I dont need any of your support cos you're all useless. Oh wait? Was there any help given to me before? Haha - i doubt so. Or is it me the outsider helping much? You think you're very beautiful? Sorry but I think you look like a piece shit, in my dog's ass. You think all the guys love you? No, you're wrong. They're just after your body, dumbass. Take a good look at the mirror. your eyes and nose so tiny, your lips are torn, you're skin filled with rashes. Sorry but you forced me to do this. I really hate what you do and say today, most of the time. Even your boyf, he look like some old man. Ha-ha. Compatible. What more can I say? Birds of a feather flock together? Lmao seriously.

That night when we went to smoke with ruodan and her boyf.
You took MY cigg without asking me like as if it's yours? Take, nvm. You threw the fucking box and it fell on the floor. FUCK YOU. You asked me to pick it up. Fuck you again. Are you taking my cigg or do I fucking owe that to you? FUCK YOU BLOODY ONCE MORE, GILLIAN. Where's your bloody manners? I really hate to accept the fact that we have the same father. I wonder why I've learnt basic manners and you haven't learnt anything. Why do I hate such a fake, disgusting, ill-breeded(for dogs) sister?! Its time for you to change your fucking attitude before your boyf leaves you. He will be the last to leave you. And this is FOR YOU. No one will fuckin help you if you still don't change.

I hate you, Gillian. Have fun hating me. I hate you more than you do.
Fuck you again.

2010-08-17T12:07:00.005+08:00

I WANT A BOYFRIEND. ANY TAKERS? Baobei say that it's easy for me to have one but I am choosy! :( And I am. (you got what I mean?) And yes, I am desperate for love now because of Ruodan and her boyf~ They're so sweet! Had fun with the both of them plus Claudia and Sirachar 'studying' this few days. And my lips! Tore again. Wtf.

Lose weight
N level
Holidays
Dye hair + cut fringe & treatment
Work
Chalet
Boyfriend
Love

I need my beauty sleep now. D&t paper tomorrow.

I'm gonna be free after 11 october!!!!

2010-08-15T03:10:00.003+08:00

its 3 am now.

update bout it tmr.
I'm here because I wanna say this to my baobei!

So here, we all know that love will bring us lots joy but it will bring us heartache too. So why don't we just remain single and have fun instead of taking the risk of getting hurt? And feeling miserable? -_- I know, all r/s have their ups and downs. Humans are all stupid in love. Especially me. For having this thinking I suppose? But know what? If i ever find someone I really love and I give him 70% of myself and he only gives me only 10-20%, I will leave him straight. BUT if he gives me 60%, I will make up the other 10% for him.

Think about it baobei. Whether it makes sense to you or not.

2010-08-12T19:53:00.002+08:00

I suck. The feeling came back today. The feeling of being loved, by him. The warmth, closeness, the love as well as the pain. Remembered how we sat together in front of the comp listening to songs and when he whispered the lyrics into my ear and kissed my ear. How he hugged me and say "you will always be my baby". The feeling came back because someone sat beside me, listened and sang the song he last sang to me before he left and that person was beside me, just as close as he was. My heart sank. I hate myself even more now.

2010-08-10T21:40:00.002+08:00

Hey blog. I just came back from J8. I'm not very happy today. I'm having my science notes on my lap right now, trying to get those words inside my fucking brains but nothing went in! It's science prelims tomorrow. I don't know. I feel like shit now. Fml. What am I to do now? :{

I'm very tired.. I hate my life. I hate myself! I feel like a changed person and I want a new life. Or rather when will I have a better life? I wanna be myself. Can I?

Love
Friends
Family
Myself
Exams

2010-08-09T02:50:00.001+08:00

I should be sleeping now. I'm too happy to sleep actually. Well, it's like 3am now. I just cried again! Haha. I mean, I cried twice today. First was when Alex and I were watching some movies and second was when he told me what "he" told him. Sounds confusing? Forget about it. Alex was being an ass just now. I merely fell asleep during the show with my science notes on my hand and he took a picture of me sleeping! -fuck- He laughed at me when I tear during the touching part of the show (it was really sad) and he even laughed at me when I woke up just because my hair was in a mess (it was in a bun): meanie Alex. Alright smartalec I'm tired already. This post is for you today.

Time for bed, it'll be a sweetdream for me today. I know it :)
x0x0.

I would like to have photos in my blog but, my cam's not with me, my phone sucks, and whatever. Just no pictures!

Goodnight and I love Claudia and Ruodan ttm. They're my everything now. Part of my family/life to be exact. They was and always will.

2010-08-07T23:03:00.002+08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

I hate people hiding things from me especially from my bestfriends. Totally unexpected. Do you know exactly how much it have hurt me? So badly and you know it. I was telling myself not to cry just now, I controlled until you left. Total lost of words. Was it my fault for feeling sad? I didn't even blame you but you left in that manner. I hate this feeling. Why is everyone trying to hurt me? You could have told me first but you didn't. I don't see the point of crying but I'm just crying stupidly in front of my laptop now. I've cried too many times this month. And it's fucking painful. I'm not as strong as you. I would rather choose not to see that message if I could now.

Screw that guy. FUCK YOU. I'm just an ass and stupid.

2010-08-06T11:27:00.001+08:00

Booya. I've one good news and 1 bad news.

I'll be going to New Zealand after I've completed my ITE.! Great. I'm too happy to be even happier even though it's still 2 years from now. I've been eating chocolates ever since my birthday. During prelims, during classes, at home, ohmygod. I'll stop :)

I'll keep the bad news to myself.

I always fall asleep with my phone on my hand when I'm tired. There's nothing for you to make a BIG FUSS out of it just because I'm tired!

2010-08-04T21:54:00.002+08:00

Heyhey babies. I HATE PIMPLES!!! OMG I NEVER HAD SO MANY PIMPLES ON MY FACE BEFOREE AND THERE IS 3 ON MY FORHEAD NOW.

ANGRY/UGLY : PIMPLES & DRY LIPS. It's painful and ugly, my lips are. Sad.
Something's wrong with my body, really. Fug.

It was my birthday yesterday and it was awesome although I hoped it was celebrated with the 3 girls, will be celebrating with them this weekend though. I had 4 cakes for my birthday! Bought by Alex, Samuel (my twin sist's boyf), my elder sister Pris, and the last one was a strawberry one baked by Tiff.

Celebrated my birthday with Alex, Jeremy, Roys, Tiffany, Lennon and another guy Patrick, who is a police and then my mother, step dad and my sister! And with my family at home. I was really tired!

Hmm... Why is everyone asking if I'm attached? Haaa! It's not tht my expectations are high but I just don't know. It've been more then 6 months ever since I was attached. I wanna have one now :/ Hmmm... Who!

English prelim tomorrow. xoxo. And yes, I need a hug.

2010-08-01T18:03:00.002+08:00

HAPPY, SAD, HAPPY, SAD, FRUSTRATED, UNHAPPY, UNSATISFIED.

Everyone has the same feeling, but it just happens on different days and this is life. LIFE! Enough of my crap I know.

My 'schedule' lately has been pretty hectic but it was RATHER 'fantastic'.
And it seems like everyone is getting unluckier and unluckier nowadays. Alex and Jeremy had an bike accident last Friday and my sister's boyfriend also have an car accident last week (-_-) Luckily no one was injured :) But that doesn't mean that they're not unlucky.

Just came back from bugis with dad. Fun!
Anw HI JASON! :D

2010-07-30T21:26:00.000+08:00

I'm lost.

I've done something wrong. I just feel like stopping everything for a moment whenever I think about it. It's not that I'm not, not facing the problems I'm facing now. I just can't believe what I've done. I just kept telling myself that it wasn't me, but it was me it was me all the while. And when I think about it, I just feel like giving up on everything, don't want to think about anything and just sleep. I don't know what to do or rather what I'm doing now. My life now is just school and study, home and cry, walk and cry, sleep and family. No love, no fun, no nothing. I don't even feel like bothering about anything more. I would wanna die if I have the choice. Kendrick said that I need some counselling. Yea maybe I do.

And, I wasn't even gaining sympathy in the previous post.

2010-07-24T00:06:00.000+08:00

I am just too stupid. I've wasted enough tears. I shouldn't be crying for them treating me this way but I just kept crying. Will they even cry for me after all the pain they brought to me? No, they wouldn't. So why the fuck am I even crying? It's because of the pain. They will never know the kind of pain. I know that it's my fault for pushing him and I admit it, but will it even happen if they didn't start all this shit? Now everyone blames me. He didn't even fall. They're all changing their statements. So why are you guys lying? Just because of hatred? Jealousy? Or is it because that I'm uglier then the rest of the girls? Don't you think that it's too much? Haven't you guys brought me enough pain? Do you guys have conscience? Wouldn't your conscience bother you at all? Thanks for all the pain you guys have bought to me.

2010-07-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

kkk lazy!

I just came to realise HOW MUCH my classmates dislike me because I'm impartial, and they claim that it was my attitude. And another thing, a girl from my class (my friend) kinda hate me just because I studied with her boyfriend -_- she was jealous. And these are called friends? I don't have any true 'friends' in my own class. But friends like that?!? I have many. I hate all this hating each other thing totally. How old are you guys? Don't you feel ashamed? Acting so big in class/school when others feel sick when they look at you? Question yourself. Think you're big in school oh, (haha) or only in class by having friends making so much noise in class? Find me outside then. Don't use friends to talk or the whatever so brothers you call yourself -EH SAI- It's super embarrassing. No balls then don't act until like you're so fucking needed everywhere. This post is to a few guys from my class. I don't even give a shit. And the girl, ask your boyfriend not to call me and ask me to stay back in school to study with him! Oh, pls keep him for yourself! He is not my type of guy at all. DUH.

Chatting with Mario on fb now. Going to bed soon. I'm really tired of tolerating people from my class. All I hope for is that I can continue to tolerate and complete this 2 fucking months in my school. Haha. I had enough of all those people hating me. They think they're pretty? My balls to them. Only know how to copy others. PUI. But I will only think you're pretty if I copy you (:

2010-07-20T20:58:00.004+08:00

If you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.

- a quote by Mother Theresa.

Woke up late today but was on time for school. I know that I've this very bad habit of venting my anger on everyone whenever I am angry. I know..... Kay, so went home with Panda after school, took a shower and headed to my darling's house for our so called "steamboat" Haha. It was nice. H2H talk and home. They said that I was sensitive. I AM BECAUSE I CARE OK! It is not a bad thing..

Can someone tell me exactly what a good guy? Are there any? I find it hard to love/trust/accept them anymore. Is the reason because I'm too used to being alone? Doubting guys? And are guys all the same? What to do! I've seen too much! Saw how my friends flirt with other girlS and I am afraid of it. I am afraid of love.

I.LOVE.SCHOOL. (motivation)

2010-07-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

╔══╗
╚╗╔╝
╔╝(¯`v´¯)
╚══`.¸Cookies

Got that from Mario :D Hehe.

2010-07-17T13:54:00.001+08:00

Someone told me "Nvm baby slowly, I can wait." the other day. And he is willing to change to be a good guy for me. (I believe he is waiting for another girl too) And another guy told me that he will change too. This made me realise that guys are all the same. Guys....... Tsktsk.

STUDIES FIRST.

2010-07-16T15:15:00.001+08:00

Skipped school again. Fml... I know what I want but I'm just not doing it.

"Thought you'd always be mine"

I wanna play pool. POOL!

2010-07-15T05:08:00.003+08:00

Importance.

The 2 important people in my life. I don't wish to screw anything up again.

Thinking about him now... I can't sleep. I stink. Going to school in another hour or so. I can't sleep properly for more then 5 hours nowadays.. Anyone know what's wrong with my body? Well I doubt so cos I don't even know what happened to me.. It's just very uncomfortable. Sigh. So many things happening recently ever since the 3 of us got back together. Knowing each other is fate but screwing up one another isn't. I really wanna let the both of you know that we really shouldn't take things for granted. The way the 3 of us is now isn't like the past anymore although all of us have decided to forget about the past but memories are always memories, we will still remember them till the 3 of us grow old. Like we said, forget about the past (bad memories) is it really possible if we're behaving like this, now? Talking to each other like we're just normal friends as if we don't understand each other at all? In fact, we understand most things about each other even more then our parents could, that's why we're treating each other like this. Maybe I'm too sensitive. To me, my friends are almost close friends or rather best friends. And 'sisters' means more. And we shouldn't talk to each other in the way as if we are cautious against each other. No matter how many lies we've all lied to each other, I know that I won't hurt any of you and the same for the both of you physically or mentally. It's like my Chinese suck and the both of you still speak to me in English even though you both are better in Chinese. And I always use 'singlish mix Chinese' for the both of you to understand, sometimes. Compromise.

I'm not gonna talk about giving up on you anymore. The more I say or rather think about letting it go, it means the more I'm holding onto it.

Gonna take a shower and Geraldine will study hard!

2010-07-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

School, skipped extra lessons, hub with nasuha, headed to Andre's house and home. Bathe, dinner and met stonefish. Going to bed soon, not feeling well too.

The more I love, the more pain I feel. I've decided to give up.
Take it as if it's just a dream. Pointless.

2010-07-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

I won't say that you've not affected me. You did.

I miss him. I think of him almost everyday now and then. I scream, laugh and feel the pain in myself when ever I think of him. The feeling is there but the reason isn't. I don't know what he's thinking but I know it's impossible between us. It makes my head spin tremendously. I will try to forget about him. He's not my cup of tea as well as I am. What for? My heart kinda weaken whenever I look at his photos think about how he hugged and made me laugh and how he annoy me. And now it's all the pain that's coming into me.. How I wish that it's possible between us, but it isn't at all. You've saved me many times, I have to save myself this time. I am in so much pain, lost. I am lost. The only thing I can do now is to act like nothing had happened. I am sorry to myself and not him.

I was really high in the morning. Then vomited 3 times. Didn't sleep last night but I don't feel tired at all. I wanna play poool!

2010-07-10T19:42:00.001+08:00

It have been 123456789 days ever since you heard from me yea.? So I'll write a little since I'm free and online now, before I go to bed, AGAIN. My lappy will be done next week -Delayed-

So, I just came back from my honey's boyfriend's chalet (his birthday) went there yesterday. Well, what can I say man... All I did was sleep upstairs, smoke downstairs, sleep upstairs, smoke downstairs x10. And being annoyed by the blasting music although it was good. And whatever. Cabbed home with Shawn and saw my brother going for basketball. I saw him unexpectedly when I was walking for cab to the chalet too. Coincidence. Tsk tsk.

Jeremy and I = normal friends now. Hope it will be better.
Didn't attend school on Friday.
Drinking water now.

- I was having stomachache earlier on and I've been drinking water the moment I stepped into my house. Might be going to kpool at night with Alex if I can make it as in if I can wake up. Feels good thinking about sleeping without techno blasting. I swear, the whole room was vibrating yesterday until 8am this morning. Feeling tired already. Goodbye honey pie.

2010-07-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

idk what to say.....

I was happy the past few days? School? Alright.

School was good so far except for falling asleep occasionally. Went to Serangoon to find my mummy on Tuesday, I was really happy there. Daddy came to pick me up from school on Monday cos I needed to go to Tampines so we traveled from Amk to Tampines then from Tampines to kovan cos we went to the wrong place then from kovan to bishan and to rws (at sentosa) to pick my grandma up -_- it was a long journey and it caused me headache. Thats all I can remember. Didn't go to school today cos I was tired and my stomach was very pain.. And it suck seriously. Jeremy bought the tickets for Eclipse online and its super hard to get like what others said. I thought he was lying but he said he booked the tickets ytd and I guess I was lucky but I'm not going cos I'm having a serious stomach cramp earlier but I'm feeling better now. Jeremy will be going with Zoe.

Will be getting my laptop back next week. Thinking about that makes me happier ;D
School tomorrow, again. (Geraldine will study hard)

2010-06-27T23:27:00.002+08:00

Hi. Im unhappy! I have 3 pimples on my face which is like wtf cos school's gonna reopen tomorrow (if i'm not wrong). Gonna look like crap when school reopens ;( Jeremy says that I'm just growing up. (wtf) I hate pimplesss. !!!!

Anw, my laptop is repairing now. SERIOUSLY. I miss it so much! I went to Kovan with my sis, Clarrisa and Pandora on Friday. They accompanied me to popular cos I needed to buy some drawing materials.. Went to Pandora's house till 10, had fun talking to her sister Georgina who is extremely gorgeous and talkative. Haha. Talked to Jeremy for a little while and we headed to Pasir Ris for Sharon's chalet, left at 8am with Jeremy, went for breakfast at macs and home :)

Saturday? Was just another normal day. Woke up, took a shower, quarreled with dad again. (its like everyday) complaint to Jeremy, took my drawing materials, left home, met Jeremy under my block and we went to bugis, walked around the street, (Jeremy and I was wondering why there are still so many act ah lians there -.-) Bought sweets and tons of junk food, headed to Alex's house, they played their poker, dota, PS3 and blabla. I was just drawing there like some kinder garden kid, (that's what Alex said) fell asleep on the table, used Alex's computer, dinner at chomp chomp had stingray and blabla 6 people went to eat and we spent like $100+. Haha. Something pissed me off before we went home, Jeremy, Rick, Alex and Shaowei was smoking ,I was waiting, there was a group of little girls looking at us, I ignored, one of them came to us and asked Jeremy if he could bring her for a spin as her friends had a dare on her (which was like fucking fake) she was begging Jeremy all the way in a like (please please x100) for 5 fucking minutes ok? Fucking Jeremy fucking seems like he was enjoying the talk her. CHEEBEI. I was fucking unhappy so I left with Alex's bike, we went for a spin instead/Shaowei scolded the girl and they left. What a joke. So what if it's a dare? Will you die if you don't do it? If you will die then why leave? Jump on his fucking bike la. So simple. -_-

Yesterday wasn't my day.

2010-06-23T15:41:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone.

Just a short post before I take my shower. I just woke up not long ago.... mm.. What can I say now? My bed is in a mess. I went back to school yesterday for English oral practice I was late but wasn't punished *smiles. I'll be going to Serangoon, amk and pasir ris later. Anyway I have been thinking about things again. I wanna grow up, I wanna work, I wanna move out, have my own house with a new dog, paint and decorate my own house, blablah I want everything to be new. I think I'm late. Gtg! Byee XXXX

2010-06-20T18:02:00.006+08:00

Some mistakes in the previous post. Supposed to be - I was just being nice and people think that I am flirting?

Gonna fix my lappy next Wednesday.
School on Tuesday (not very happy)
Chalet on Thursday (Aaron's)
Chalet on Friday (Sharon's)

I woke up unhappily this afternoon. Maybe because I didn't have enough sleep or maybe I had a nightmare. I went amk for pool yesterday with an old friend of mine, ML and Melissa. Was supposed to accompany her to the clinic near my house ONLY but we went for dinner @ j8 and went to amk for pool. Nothing wrong with that but I was wearing what I went to bed. Ok, I know you don't understand so just forget it unless you saw me yesterday. I saw some. At the same time, I found out something even worst, hurting, breaking, whatever.

Talking to Jeremy now, he is washing his car... Supposed to celebrate father's day together but it seems like the plan is cancelled. His daddy got to fly to Vietnam for some business thing and Jeremy is unhappy! Cheering him up now. Might be meeting Alex and them for dinner later.

And those whom said I was a flirt. Do you really know me? Like know me seriously? Shut your trap if you don't. If I remembered correctly, I don't know you that well. But it seems that you have got a pair of judgemental eyes huh? So good at judging others by just reading their blog? HA HA. And please say your craps to others and not me cos I am not deeply affected at all :) I don't feel guilty in anyway. I didn't hurt anyone. (you mean were you hurt by me before that's why you're here calling me a flirt?) Its either you play or you be played by others. Am I counted as smart in another way?

I am serious when I get into an relationship unless you take it as a game.

If there isn't anymore love in a relationship, we break up and I talk to 10 or more guys everyday. There is nothing wrong even if i hug them. To me, it is absolutely normal to tell all of them "love you" before I go to bed because I am single, they are my friends and I can choose who I want to love as long as I am single. Couldn't I? I am single. Why can't I tell my friends that I love them? Calling me flirt cos I love my friend? WHAT A JOKE MAN. Take it as you're not open enough. Just stop being so judgemental and calling others flirt just because you have nothing to do.

Use your brains before you start using your fingers and not your toes to type alphabets out of your keyboard.

2010-06-18T04:25:00.001+08:00

I was just being nice and people thinks that everything I am flirting?

Ok, a little unhappy earlier on in the afternoon but I'm all right now. Anyway I cried, the movie Marley and me ya know. 430 now, on the phone with Jeremy, he is sleeping, just finish chatting with my ex boyfriend on msn. (haha) Idk if he will read this but there's a joke inside I guess? So I'm going to bed soon. later. now.

Goodnight honey. I know there's nothing much in this post but I will blog again tomorrow if I wake up early. It'll be a nice day for everyone today :)

2010-06-17T06:01:00.002+08:00

Hey guys. It have been awhile ever since I last blogged. It's 6am now and well well, nothing special happened recently except for getting used to night life, again. It happens to every teenagers every summer hols or whatever holiday. Today's weather kinda suck, I was wearing my jacket for the whole day until now. Not exaggerating but the weather was seriously very cold today.

I hate you whenever you sound right. I hate you whenever you scold me. I hate it when you tell me not to sleep in the bus without you cos I only fell asleep once. I hate all the quarrels. You're the one I trust most and so stop being a bitch by calling me pubor. xxx.

Good morning and thanks for playing my games on facebook for me.

2010-06-13T01:41:00.001+08:00

Soccer took Jeremy away :(

Jeremy and bro went to powerhouse to watch soccer I think :( Soccer is a bitch. I lied to him that I was going to bed early cos I was angry and he just replied me ae 'goodnight' didn't really care. I swear, soccer is a bitch. I SWEAR!!! I think they bet on USA if I'm not wrong. LOL. Don't know what country actually don't really care anyway. So I'm going to bed now. Hahaha. Muffins were successfully baked today :) I'm not lying.

Anyway get well soon my little boyboy.
My lips are tearinggggg. Pain* grr...

I don't drink, I don't clubs. Is this the type of girl guys like? Oh lord.
Girls who goes clubbing just wanna be noticed, touched, make friends and have se.xxxx cos they are desperate. (unless you went there with your boyfriend) Thats what Derick bro said and I think that it's quite funny and it's also quite true. He was just joking anyway, girls :D Heee.

2010-06-11T23:06:00.001+08:00

Was feeling very upset early in the morning over something ultimately stupid, getting use to it. So I went out with mummy and Jeremy. Went for lunch and shopping at amk bought 3 pairs of shoes and 2 tees, followed by a body massage. I'll be baking some french muffins tomorrow, it wasn't planned at all, I just happened to buy the ingredients just now cos mommy asked if I wanna bake since I like baking soooo much. Haha. I love my mummy a lot. She always make me feel loved in the way I want. Was supposed to go for the party at Sentosa (Jeremy bought the tickets) but I realised that we couldn't make it so we gave the tickets Alex and his girlfriend :) Couldn't go cos I was wearing a simple green tee and a funny looking pants which I found in my cupboard. I need to be home early like before 12am (latest). It was 9 before we made up our mind.

Sleeping early today.

Happy mufffin day tomorrow (:

2010-06-10T03:16:00.001+08:00

Is it really impossible just because we have some difficulties communicating with each other? If that's the case then I will try even harder. School in another 5 hours, tired. I'm still chatting with him. Luv.

xxxx.

2010-06-07T22:25:00.003+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow. Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

This song made me tear. (somewhere over the rainbow)

I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH BLOOD. My grand aunt who is a nurse told me that I don't have enough blood cos....(can't say) which was a little f up.. Currently eating chips with my father, my step mommy and my doggy. I bet your dog doesn't drink Slurpee, eats curry, chips, popcorn and pringles like mine. Hahahah. Strawberry is nice.

I will not let what I do outside affect my studies.
Today's weather suck totally.

2010-06-06T08:59:00.002+08:00

Its 9AM now, I woke up this early for him.. But I guess I was late? I think he went to bed. Mixed emotion, more on the sad side. Mmm.. Should I back to sleep or breakfast with Jeremy? (I know that I look like cat, stop saying!)

Jeremy : WAH wake up so early ah, lets go for breakfast me and alex havent eat our supper.
Me : ..................... (supper? now what time?)

2010-06-05T12:59:00.002+08:00

No matter what I do, someone is gonna get hurt.

well well. Mm... I just got home not long ago, feeling very sleepy BUT I'm not going to bed yet. I'm waiting for someone to come online actually.. Foolishness would just be an understatement. Hope he will come online. I'm waiting til 3AM, for him. It's 1AM now.

Stress, i need a hug..
xxxxxxx.

2010-06-03T21:03:00.002+08:00

Candid shots of my classmates. (18th may)

What to say..... Hmm.. Something is wrong with my stomach recently and it's hurting badly now. Every time after I blog, I will tell myself "I will blog about something happy when I blog again." Every day before I sleep I will hope for a better tomorrow. Not happening. There's always, ALWAYS someone spoiling my day.

Something bad happened this morning. I don't think I am at fault at all. Some words to describe about that bitch - Chicanery, malevolence, oppress, pugnacious, malicious, hypocritical, duplicitous, egotism, thoughtless and SPITEFUL. Spoil people's day. It wasn't even her problem but she came into the conversation. (hah) one more word - kaypo. I am not gonna give a shit to that unreasonable piece of shit anymore :) The more you respect and give face to someone, they will think that you're easy to bully and eventually they will take advantage of you.

Will be good if you carry on acting like you don't know my blog ;) Thankyou!

2010-06-02T21:59:00.001+08:00

Went to school late today and left early ;> went to my love's house, chatted till I fell asleep till 6. I could have slept longerrr if he didn't wake me up! :{ Stupid Jere. Nothing much happened today but it was a good day, normal but I was happy so yea, who really cares right. Currently chatting on phone and on msn. Multi tasking! Haha (what a joke) I feel like eating cake but I feel like vomitting. Boo fuck :/ Ohoh ohhh oh! I saw a cute guy during lunch today, not really that cute but who cares. I don't have a boyfriend so I can look and admire guys freeeeeeely. Ha hahaha. K who cares. Bye ok!?

Panda and I.
(accompanied him to buy his shoes then went for kfc the other day)

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so many hands touching his body.

I was eating this in class and.... I was bored? And I think it's cute?

Goodnight. Xxxxx.

2010-05-31T21:41:00.003+08:00

em... this is my new love now ;}

Today suck. I cried over my d&t file, it's missing it's my N lvls, my time, my hard work, my patience. My hard work are all inside there and it is missing now. How much can it hurt me? Too much. I feel like crying again. Major headache and body ache. Dang. And I'm back with Justin again. Not those kind of couple couple type well we're friends but we're hanging out together again. God.

I am not going to cut my hair for a year.

No bedtime story for me today I guess? I'm going to bed.

2010-05-30T23:13:00.002+08:00

Certain things are better left unsaid.
Everything really gonna be ok? Is everything ok for you or me? Just get away from me. Just leave the 1year2months alone like how you did before. Just go away.

To every thing there is a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven.

Ok, turning in very early today. Got to be school at 8am later. Boo.
xxxxxx sweetdreams.

2010-05-29T13:45:00.004+08:00

PLANS.
Firstly, most people know that I had been drawing my future house and everything is drawn in 3D version just missing a little bit of colours.. Though it's just some simple drawings but I am happy with it not because I can draw but cuz I know what I want for my future. Basically, the walls of my house including all the rooms will be painted in white, lime green, and pink. I'll upload the photos of my drawing after I add in the colours.. Hopefully it will happen! Walking the talk, I've also planned to live overseas if I can't acheive what I want here in Singapore. Haha :> Singapore is such a nice place but other countries could be better too I guess? I know some will think that it is impossible for a 16 year old girl to think about acheiving all this, I won't blame you cuz I find it impossible myself when I was drawing the house. But well, like I've said, these are just plans. Even if I can't have a Condo, I'll have a HDB flat. Things could go wrong sometimes but it is always possible as long as we try, our best. I'm gonna study hard and make my dream come true. I'm serious about it, about my house. Secondly, there is no secondly because I don't want this post to be a 10 pages long compo. - haha.

And YESSS!!!! Holidays are here. But guess what! No holiday for me. I need to go back to school for the whole fucking day from 8am to 430pm! (longer than normal school days) 1st week, 5 days. Not too bad in the 2nd week, 2 days. Last week, 3 days i think? I was at "wtf" at first but it was my N levels after all so yea, definitly worth it. And there goes my holiday.

Anyway stop saying that my post is long. You don't have to read it anyway and even if you need too, then good for you. If you're here just to see pictures then shoo. Cuz this blog here doesn't need you.

I feel like baking. Shall bake next week :) WHAT?!!!! Baking is fun! Gonna take a nap. And I find no reason to go out now a days... No good reasons and I am lazy = home. Boo. Drinking and eating in front of the comp is my hobbie and ulcers are my new friends now. Haha bye!

2010-05-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

I was having the same feeling again. I have been complaining about drinking too much water recently. I can drink bottles and bottles of drink a day. I drank 9 bottles of water yesterday. Is it weather or is it me? Maybe I shall blog tomorrow. Tired.

2010-05-26T21:01:00.001+08:00

It've been a while since I left my blog here, I've been really busy this few days. Many things happened this few days, I really wanna share every little happy things with you guys but I have to make this a short post cuz I'm feeling super tired and might fall asleep anytime (thanks to the sports carnival). I ate A LOT yesterday which was quite a bad but good thing.. I ate 3 cheesecake, 2 bowls of fried rice, 1 bottle of milk, potatochips, chocolates, 2 pieces of chicken and a burger from KFC. After 1 month of having no appetite and that's the good thing. Hmm... The bbq party on Saturday was good or rather overwhelming. We had XO instead of Martel and Vodka to beers. I didn't drink a lot as I am not a good drinker I swear. Slept for 21 hours on Sunday. Was really tired... Skipped school on Monday and Tuesday and went to school today cuz school starts late today had kfc again after school before I unexpectedly went for sports carnival and it was fun though. Haaa. Just wondering is I should go for the chalet on Friday. Laziness is the thing that is keeping me back. Grrr.

AND TOMORROW IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL BEFORE THE ARRIVAL OF MY HAPPINESS COMEEESSS. ARGH!

More pictures on fb! xoxo, dinedine.

2010-05-21T19:27:00.001+08:00

Just a short post before I go and have my dinner @ chomp chomp with my friends. I was shopping for BBQ stuff with my friends earlier on till now, and I'm leaving in another 30 minutes. We're having a BBQ party tomorrow. Good opportunity to see who are true friends and who are not ;)

OK! Guess it is about time so well, happy weekends everyone!

2010-05-20T22:10:00.007+08:00

Thoughts

I've been very busy recently. With school (design&technology) and rather busy thinking about my life after school, yea it's everyday. I cried for hours yesterday before i slept, how much more could I hate my life, how much longer must i tolerate in order to leave home, how many more times must i swallow the pain and not make any noise about it? I don't feel good telling anyone besides, I've no one to pour all my troubles to now. I think that I'm counted as a very lucky girl compared to others - being positive, that i have a very loving, caring, and a rather understanding mother, a very strict, naughty, irritating and a rather playful daddy, 5 good siblings and my smart precious little bubbles (my dog) god gave me even though we quarrel a lot. Haha. It sounds like the happy family I wanted. My parents were separated when i was at a very young age. My mother brought me with her when she left dad, only me. The first time i saw my twin sister was at age 7, i didn't even know that she was my twin sister at first, we just smiled and laughed at each other. I was a rather independent girl from the the age of 7 to 9 years old, I will wake up myself, went to school to and from by the school bus myself, nobody would be at home when i reached home, my mother always leave $5-$10 for me for my lunch on the table under the telephone. I can't deny that i was a good girl then, I'll do my homework while waiting for my mother to come home which was around 7pm. Then at age 9, I was sent to stay with my daddy and my siblings due to school issues. I remembered clearly that my mother sent me there with a luggage, and 2 big bags of clothes and school books she sent me up and left, I didn't feel sad at all. The moment i stepped into that house, everything changed from there. The environment, the rules, the way they talk, they way me and my siblings go to school together all this and all that. I've a step mom and a step brother. I remembered dad and stepmother treated me ultimately nice for the first few months. Every one or two week we will go to the swimming complex together and I'll go to my mother's house every weekend to stay for 2 days. Without fail, I'll always cry when I was going back to my father's house telling her that I wanted to stay with her, I saw my mother's tearing once and i told myself that I will not cry again. But the only way to not cry was to control, I did control but it hurt me deeply inside. My aunt told me to eat a sweet whenever I felt like crying, but I feel more pain each time when i pop the sweet into my mouth, if I'm able to control then it is effective but I'll just burst into tears when if I couldn't control. And as years past, many things happened, I've gone bad, I started smoking, taking pills, using vulgarities, no longer the good girl Geraldine anymore, dad's attitude changed, my sisters, my life, my thinking, basically everything. I felt so unloved. Why must daddy and mummy separate? Why was i even born in this family? Why are my siblings so selfish, so irritating? There were many times when my sisters and I quarrel and they would just ask me to go back to my mother's house. Am I one of them? I am. Why are they asking me to get back to my mother's house? I want to go back there badly, a lot. But i can't! I won't be so thick skinned to be somewhere where people don't want me to be. I kept them to myself, I cried, I get frustrated, I felt like leaving house to live with my mother. She gives me mostly everything I want and I have everything I want. The love between this family are just so limited. It is. I feel more love with my mother but it doesn't mean that I don't love my mother. I really don't wanna cry anymore, I know it won't happen.

Anyway, I went to school with a swollen big eye this morning but it got better after a few hours. Talking about today, I am really disappointed in him cuz he just end it this way with no explaination. What a guy. He has got someone new now, and he didn't even care to notice that he was a liar who changed his heart quickly. HA ha ha. I need a good laugh. I'm starting to doubt everything that he said, they are all bull shit now. Since it meant nothing to him then it shall be nothing to me. I'll not curse him but god I beg you, please teach him how to be true. Sincerly from the bottom of my heart.

I am meeting Jeremy in 15 minutes, so annoying! *.

2010-05-16T22:28:00.003+08:00

Le coeur.

I'm happy (Giggles) It could be possible that I'm crazy, 2 post in a day. And yes, i drew that 'garden' above. Today was the second time receiving balloons from Jeremy. This time he gave me 5 balloons and a box of chocolates with 3 most touching sentences that i would always remember. I love balloons pretty much especially when they come in different colours and those in heart shape.. I get really really happy when i see little little kids holding on to balloons walking around in the shopping mall and i get even happier when i receive them. I don't throw balloons away, I free them, i like looking at them fly up the sky and then disappear.

I'm prepared for school tomorrow. And on this, i wish you guys a good day tomorrow!

2010-05-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

This isn't some kind of a photography I'm talking about here. This picture doesn't speak a thousand words, but it meant more then a hundred words, happened more then a thousand words and a million of alphabets to fit into the emotion in between. What I'm trying to say is - don't just look at something that happened and start to make judgments. Sometimes we just gotta look into it before we start being judgemental (giving comments, discriminating others just to bring them down) and surely we should understand it before we start to make a proclamation. Nothing to do with the photo. In a simpler phrase, don't judge the book by it's cover.

It's still so sunny. I can feel the heat from my window even though my air con is turned on. Bad weather just won't go away- and it suck. It's either raining or way too sunny and that keeps me hiding and lazing around at home. Boo!

Anyway, i actually got to know a guy from Canada.. He is just a normal guy but a guy who has a pair of pretty blue eyes, he is cute. We have been talking a lot this few days and i came to realise that i didn't get tired of talking to him and in fact we actually have a lot to talk about and he agrees to that too.. Something weird is that I don't know what has gotten into me but I just felt that i gotta know everything about him. It's just so much that i wanna know everything.

I'm gonna take a shower now. Shall not let my day go into a waste :p
Will post again soon. Au revoir!

2010-05-14T16:49:00.005+08:00

Feeling so fucked up. I really don't know how many fucking times i gotta quarrel with my dad. I really wanna pack up and leave this fucking place. I wanna do what i wanna do, what i like and not something that is good for me while i don't like. He thinks that he is the motherfuckin smartest person on earth. And said that i was being rude. Wasn't he rude too? Screw his ass. Cheebai.

Kkk enough of all the irritating things spoiling my day. Im gonna rest for awhile and I'll be going out tonight and wont be going home! I've already decided, i won't give a shit to any unreasonable ass anymore. I will be the Geraldine people knows me as before. Hehe. I'll be going to Anne's birthday @ pasir ris but will be going to vivooo with Alex, sammy and Jeremy to get presentss first (Y) Alright thats all and yea happy time later.

Thanks for the balloons baby :)

2010-05-13T22:44:00.001+08:00

Hey guys... I'm feeling so sleepy but there are so many things on my mind now. I need to sleep i know. I'm just feeling so, so depressed now. I need someone to talk to me or just listen to me. Someone who doesn't knows anything about me and th people around me. I just wanna let everything out without leaving any burden to anyone. It's just hurting inside me.

When you came so close to my face telling me that you missed me in your arms. There is really so much that i wanna need to know. I'm really afraid. Will you say it to her when you return to NY? I don't wanna be your Singapore girlfr. I wanna be your baby no matter where you are. Be it Las Vegas, Wisconsin/Chicago, NYC, Seattle, Honolulu, where ever you are like how we were last time even though it was hard on us. I know you're here with me now giving me all the assurance, but they're just the present. The past, the future, when you return to the place of memories with her will it happen again? I kept asking if you'll leave me again like what you did before. It's kinda funny and mad. There isn't any trust from me at all. It wasn't 3 days but 3months, was indeed a pain and sweet one. I love you much though. Deeply and wholeheartedly before.

And for that guy i like now, i know some were saying that it wasn't worth it. Yea, i may be being stupid to believe him. He doesn't know how much i like about him. No stupid guys would do that especially those around my age. Being stupid here to miss and love him while he might be just having fun with some other girls, flirting and all. All the negative and scary things they said to me. Saying that he's just treating me as an option, coming to me when he has no other girls. I know. But the problem here is i won't say anything cuz we're nothing at all. I've no rights and I'll just blame myself. But i believe that toleration is the best evidence to prove that we really love each other. I'm doing that but i think he isn't.

I'm really lost @
Frustrated.

2010-05-12T21:49:00.000+08:00

LOVE. This four little letters can bring joy, just like they bring pain.
I think i'll forget that i actually have you.

I'm so bored. Room's aircon and fan is on, but i'm still feeling hot. Not trying to be random but i want a baby 2. A boyfriend, and a baby girl. GIRL. Yes a GIRL well, and maybe a boy.

Pain helps the strength of the smile.

I'm tired. Good day for everyone tomorrow :)
Nonono. KFC! Hahahaa.

2010-05-12T16:39:00.001+08:00

Hi stalkers ;}

ZH texted me in the morning before he slept and i told him not to go to bed and meet me later :/
And he said "ok baby" Hehe. Supposed to meet him at 2 but we fell asleep so might be meeting him around 6.

Anyway i am and i love to be pampered by guys^^ Which girl doesn't?
(when i dont have a boyfriend)

2010-05-10T23:08:00.005+08:00

I like it when messages comes in 6 at a time :) I wanna show offfffff about what i've been doing recently. So just read (haha) Nothing much to show off anyway. Zhenghock just called me and asked me to accompany him to popular tmr! Adorable much !! And it's the FOURTH DAY, i mean, my throat infection.. I can talk and laugh loudly at times but i can't eat properly!

-Fridayy
Went to school for a paper, then went to G's house, j8 to meet zl, had kfc before heading to DG to get her Yakuza Moon book, parklane for mac with Ivan, mark, and some other 5 more boys, chatted for hours about their tattoos my skin was really really itching much, lan, then to Cathay walkwalk and home @ before 12. I SAID BEFORE 12.

-Saturday
Met my darling and 7boys (lazy to write their names out) for dinner at Sembawang around 10plus.. Ate all the way till 12. Saperated ways to TPY and bishan. N : becarefull hor don if drinking beer don drink too much anything call me. (according to what he sent me. laughed for 5 minutes.)

-Sunday
Nothing happened. Ok la, somehow quarreled with someone. Met Jeremy until 12, h2h talk although i kept changing the subject... But he still managed to cheer me up. He bought me 2 bottles of honey aloe vera drink. Though it was a bit kia su but he still meant well :) heh. Slept around 1.

As for today, it was mathematics paper1. I swear i left them undone slept throughout the paper. I'm just tired and well, it isn't Nlvl anywat. It's ok to focus a little lesser. Hah! Fake. Went to g's house again, rushed home and rushed down to town to catch My life in ruins with my ex boyfriend. Hah. I know i very buay pai sei. And i'm super tired now. My bed is in a messs but i will still be able to sleep! Yay to sleeping boo to school tomorrow. Goodnight, xxx.

2010-05-05T20:41:00.002+08:00

You are so adamant at this time, you are not willing to concede to anything. You are dictatorial with your own ideas and the way you are feeling and there is little that anyone can do to make you change your mind, or to be able to persuade you to make concessions or to accept any compromise.

You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.

You are very demanding - and insisting on total involvement but you do not reciprocate with the same depth of feeling. However, it could well be that maybe an unprecedented surprise is awaiting you in the near future. For just as one whilst paddling in the sea, could flounder into a whirlpool, so you may be drawn into a loving situation that has high emotional demands - and you could well respond with a depth of emotion that you never even dreamed that you possessed.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this 'complex' by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.

Someone sent me home today ;} Just a normal friend... JX wanted to meet me earlier on but... Think i'll meet him if i've time on sat after my studies if there isn't anything important.. Meeting L on fri! Weee!

I'm having a bad sore throat! GRRR.

2010-05-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

Ok, so i'm here with my d&t papers and my science notes.
Just wondering if i'd study later. I'm feeling so down now. My head is spinning badly, i feel like vomiting, i feel like crying, i feel like sleeping. I feel like fainting. Something's wrong? Nothing's wrong. I'm always like this. Just 'S'ed. Dad and grandma is ignoring me cuz i stayed over at my mother's place ytd. Fuck? She's my mother. Anyway, i dont care. Ignore jiu ignore. Lets see who starts talking 1st. Since dad doesn't care, i wont care either.

I just came back from the library and j8! Met yaole, matt, cheeboon, hansong while going home then accompanied them to shop for something :) Happy. Then went to the library with my sister and her friend. And here i am, HSH. It's not home sweet home. It's home sour home. Ok, whatever. Stayed back in school till 5+ and left with zhenghock, yz, and chunrong. Okok. Always with guys, i know. Shut your trap. They are just my friends. And CPA theory tmr. I doubt i will do well.

This is what someone said about me today!

#1
CR : eat slow, drink slow, put ear stick slow, smoke slow, walk slow. Everything slow.
(quited smoking already.)

I sneezed and classmates said i sound like a cat. Wtf!?!?!?!? Really meh!?!? -.-

Ok, feeling so giddy now. :(((
ok bye. Cheer up jere!

2010-05-04T00:22:00.009+08:00

Hello,

(you may click to read if you want to :)

hahahaa.

I'm his baby dear. HAHAHAAH.

WHILE CHATTING WITH PANDA.
I ADMIT THAT WE'RE PLAYFUL and we luv each other.... BUT!
HE IS DEFINITELY NOT MY BOYFRIEND! :)

WELLLL, it was mummy's birthday 22 minutes ago. And her wish was to buy a new house asap. Hm.. Can't do much BUT i guess it was her happiest birthday this year? With all her children, except for 1. Stayed over at her house ytd and the room was effing cold! And i'm sick now. Sucks being sick man.

Anyway, why does guys only comes back to you AFTER they found out that you're attached again? Telling me you'll treat me better, you'll love me forever, acting all like you're so fucking concerned about me, saying that you'll remain truthful and be loyal to me. Why bother telling them to me now? Would you be really appreciate and treasure that chance if i gave it to you? I doubt you would. Useless. I love him, and i'll not love him like how you love me and the otherwise, how i love you, i'll love him double :) Sorry I'm not tryna piss you off, but i'm serious about that.

Thanks for reading:)
BYE! xOxO. School later! (yawnyawn).

2010-05-02T00:35:00.004+08:00

sorry. Its from the bottom of my heart.
Misunderstanding. (heartache)

I know you guys can live your life happily without me too. So C, don't cry over what i've said. It isn't important anyway. And if you're feeling sad, i'm feeling double now. If you think that i didn't care, i cried too but without any sound. How long are you gonna cry? Just don't cry for too long. As for the message part, i really didn't receive any.

2010-05-01T07:24:00.005+08:00

I'm left with no words to say anymore. As in from my heart, theres so much i wanna say but it seems hard to explain. Maybe cuz i didn't thought that they would do that. Just so unexpected. Can't believe i actually cried while thinking what to write and.... But luckily i've my good brother here, here to give me a hug. xxx.

i love him. Thats all and i've nothing to say anymore. I'm stuck. At this page. In my mind. I woke up around 6, and im going for mac with Alex, dennis, Jeffrey, Jeremy, Samuel. Its like 7am already.

Ok, Alex is here i can hear is bike. Bye!

2010-04-28T23:00:00.005+08:00

PRESENTING..

SEX GOD▲

madly in luv. xxxx

MY FAVOURITE BOYSS ! Mad over them ; xoxo

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i miss the girls some how.

Anyway, i woke up at 7 today. Wasn't late for school at all. But was lazy, so end up staying at home.
Kinda bored actually. So jeremy came all the way from clementi to find me :) Supposed to meet for 10 minutes, ended up 2hours. Heh. He bought me muffins but i didnt eat them :/
Haven't been eating much this few days. Lost of appetite somehow.

stare at the food i like,
opens my mouth.
then don't feel like eating

Goodnight.
Thankyou for today Jeremy, you're still the one that understands me the best afterall.

2010-04-27T21:49:00.006+08:00

“

I am not sure exactly what heaven will be like, but I don't know that when we die and it comes time for God to judge us, he will NOT ask, How many good things have you done in your life?, rather he will ask, How much LOVE did you put into what you did?” - Mother Teresa

What's wrong? Tell me.

Being happy is when you do something thats worth doing for someone.
Happiness is found when you've given up on something you love to even give it up.
Happiness is when you cry over happy memories by thinking about them.
Happiness is when you do something with all your heart even if it's the smallest thing you can do.
Happiness is loving someone with all your heart even if he/she doesn't appreciates it.

Happiness is looking at people you hate making noise at you WHEN you don't even wanna waste another 5 seconds to look at them. How much funnier can it be?

ok bye. :)

2010-04-26T22:37:00.004+08:00

Luv.

Love this too :)

goodnight readers.
I'm feeling quite sad now.

2010-04-24T21:39:00.001+08:00

ARRRGH.

Today was a good day and so was yesterday. Went to j8 for a few hours with my sister and was messaging someone :)

And yesterday, i went to my aunt's place after school to look for my mother. She was complaining about my sister and so i gotta look after her. And was willing to pay me $1k per month to look after her during weekends, sounds good? :) It may sound stupid but I'll not take those money obviously... Cuz she is my sister! And i feel that it is my job. So so, back to ytd, saw someone otw home, its like a kind of pain to see that someone and its stupid cuz i actually cried when i got home. The pain will soon be over i know. It can't be more heartbreaking when ZH left me i know. Ok, then i went to amk around 4 to find someone, to kpool then to play at the void deck again went home around 10.

Oh, something funny about love is when all the guys/girls you once loved comes back to you at once and you don't know who to choose and sometimes we begin to find it weird. And we might question ourself, was that their plan? :) And when you tell someone you love him/her for no reasons you have to lie for, b'cuz the feeling of love to you is something that you can't express just by saying 'i love you' and the one you love doesn't believe you. And we question ourselves again, does he/she have a reason for you to believe?

2010-04-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

hello people.

I've this urge of blogging every single day after i bathe when i reach home cuz i know that there will be people reading and wanting to know what i did today(: I'll tell you what.

Went to school alone today, lessons wasn't that bad or counted as good. Went to panda's house after school while waiting for someone.. Watched that someone play basketball, went to some void deck to play cards and true or dare cuz it rained. It was damn funny i swear! His friends were super funny i swear, all the dares they dared. Ha-Ha. Laughed for more then 2 hours i swear. I am happy <3 and going to bed now. Goodnight!

i think im starting to like.....

2010-04-21T20:42:00.003+08:00

Well well, how can i put it? I think im under a lot of stress with people, lies, school, studies, time, basically everything that i'm facing. And i'm getting tired of it all. I really don't know how to deal with it and i'm left with the cowardy way, giving them up. I'll always cry when i'm stress and the only thing way to make me happy is my baby, bubbles.

Today was a busy day. I went to school happily, recess was ruined, problem after school and had to take a statement for the police, went back to school for studies then went home carrying a bag of heavy books and a heavy bag of thoughts in my mind. Thinking about so many things, what have i done wrong?

Fainted just now, feeling better now. Going to bed early today.
Major headache! I want my phone to be quiet.. Give me a break.
Just tell me goodnight and allow me to have a sweet dream tonight.

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2010-04-20T23:16:00.003+08:00

Hey readers.
My nose was blocked for the whole day. Can't taste everything properly.

Today was quite a normal good day. School went well, i think. I mean, i like all my classmates but i can't communicate with some of them. Because all of my other friends are... Much older than me and the topics we talk about and the topics some of my classmates are totally different. They are too much on the children side. Anyway caught Shutter Island after school like finally, with claudia and ruodan! Didn't like it much. Anyway, i've been spending too much this few days on useless stuff. Tsk, i must start controlling already AND i've been watching too many movies too like 5 movies in a week. Waste money.

▲▲ Currently on the line with Jeremy, repeating the song "i want it that way" eating rasin and drinking some flower tea that i've never drank before. (a smoothing drink to aid relaxtion) Thats what i saw on the sachet and i think it'll be nice and it is. What a bitch. Hey jere, i'm not listening to what you're saying because my fingers busy typing and i can't concentrate you know. I know you won't be angry for long cuz i know you're the best.

If i say i won't give a damn about someone anymore, i meant it even if he/she apologises. No point forgiving someone who have HURT you right from the start unless you feel it's worth it. It's common sense.

Gonna talk PROPERLY to Jeremy now :@ School is starting at late later! (Happiness)
Sweetdreams lovely<3

2010-04-19T21:19:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a good day.
Today was a bad day.
So what about tomorrow?
I wish i could control certain things sometimes.

I cried 2 times today and therefore its a bad day for me. I was really unhappy and sad today.
I was being a good girl in school for the past 4 months until now, i've been trying to control my serious attitude problemS(i know i have many). I mean, i admit that i am very demanding at times. I want and EVERYTHING must go in my way like how i want them to be because i think that i'm always right and better then others i know i'm being selfish by doing this and i've no rights to control others thats why i'm trying to change now. But think again, when you ask someone to change, find your own flaws and think if you can change 1 day. Just trying to say that it is not easy until you really try to change something, attitude especially. Try changing from someone with a smelly attitude who smokes, eat pills and someone who have a bunch of good but wrong friends then leaving all your friends one by one, stop eating those useless expensive stuff, and smoke. You think it's easy? Saying and doing are totally different until you tried it. I know my impression to some will be totally ruined, but i don't care. My attitude is 'dont talk to me if you cant take my attitude you aint fit to be my friend just because of my attitude' Talking about it, I'm not those type of girl who cries and fucking complain to all my boy-friends and gain sympathy from them. Sorry to disappoint you but the only person i complained to was my dad. And dad came all the way down to talk to him. Yea i am a cry baby, to my dad.

After talking dad send me, ruodan and sirchar home. Cabbed to amk hub and watched Monga instead of Shutter Island.. Tsk. Felt like fainting while walking home. Stomach eye and head hurts so badly now. Everyone is chasing me to rest now. So i will after i have a stick, goodnight.

I need a hug badly.

2010-04-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

Just reached home and i didn't off my laptop before i left home. Watched clash of the titans and Kickass today, with Jeremy. I know kickass is m18 ha. I prefer clash of the titans to Kickass cuz i fell asleep halfway. Wanted but didn't watch Shutter Island, cuz i'll be watching it with my darlings after school tomorrow. Tsk, hope we'll really watch it tmr huh (sad face):

Monday blues...... Sighsigh. Gotta bathe and my stomach cramp is fuckin killing me. Jesus. Sometimes, i really hate to be a girl cuz of all this painful shit.

Gonna bathe, talk to Jere, go to be and to school tomorrow.
Goodnight sweethearts. (Luvs)

xOxO,

BASTARD!

2010-04-16T21:21:00.007+08:00

THIS IS FOR YOU, MR WEIAN.

I don't have boyf! So stop calling me a liar-er.
& you pangsai damn long -_-

smile(:

2010-04-16T11:25:00.001+08:00

SIAN.

I didnt go to school today.. Went down to meet Jeremy, Alex and his girlf yesterday night till 2plus. . Ha-ha. Its been a long time ever since i went rounding huh. Fun. And Jeremy is sleeping now -_-

I wanna go gaigai.....! Maybe gonna watch Shutter Island later ~
Happy happy :D

ohhhh. And my hair was damn nice when i woke up just now. (Luvvv)

& I like how baby sleep beside me (:

R.

2010-04-15T23:22:00.001+08:00

I know when to give up and when to hurt people.
Make me sad, i'll make sure you feel double.
Make me unhappy, i make sure you're feeling worst.
Some people call this bitchy/sluty. But i think it's witty.

You're **, but you're worst then a 16(:

Just came back, and might be going out soon.

Spent $192 today. Was having the urge of shopping during lessons but no one accompanied me as the 2 girls were SICK today until someone jio me out~ Hah. Always so qiao?

Went to school,
studied,
slacked with L, ZH, CR, and others at 507 after school,
polyclinic to find the 2 girls,
home,
bathed,
out with P, A, J and R.

Sometimes its hard to know when im serious.
I hate people lying to me, so stop treating me like a fool.
When im nice, im really nice. But you'll see the other side of me if you're off the limit.

cute.

2010-04-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

Ha. Stupid people does stupid things to attract attention.
You think i'd care? I'm just laughing. HA - HA.

i like how we quarrel and get back happily tgt again.
Jeremy, you better stop saying that i am selfish. Ty for everything you've done baby(:
And stop scolding me.

Going to bed now.

eh you. what Geraldine flirt flirt all. I'm just used to people talking shit about all the guys i have around me. I'll just take it as you're not OPEN enough. Please carry on living in the world of - happily ever after - For me, i like to have fun and see who's lying and fucking around with me and i'll play with them too. Use your brain people. Since you all say I change boyf every-week. Stalk me more, i'll show you how i change my boyf per week. Facebook? (:

Or my phone? Nah, too many guy's messages. Facebook will do.

OH, ANY CUTE HOT GUYS TO INTRO?

tinkywinky.

2010-04-14T00:50:00.004+08:00

I rather be dead then to steal someone's boyf.

Just woke up with 32 messages 43 miss calls.. 20 from Jeremy! Gr. Th rest from others.
All my friends are active in the night except me :(
How sad. All the jerks. Finefine, i'm a school girl i know.

She look super fake when she smiles, there's smth wrong with her lips.
(But all the jerks thinks that she is pretty, then she is!)

Not being jealous, she's like a little girl to me even though we're of the same age.
I just felt sick looking at everything she does. Acting like she's close to 'AL, AB'
which makes me wanna laugh cos some were my friends before (i dont mix with them alr.)
It's like, trying hard to act like one of them.

Lets see who is closer.
Sorry but if you think this is for you, then its for you.
xOxO(:

And oh, i hate people acting like me. (thost i dont like)
Looking at the things i do or the things i have then do and get the same thing as me.
I'm sure you'll read this copycat.

B,

2010-04-13T16:15:00.001+08:00

went to school, reported sick which means i didn't study... Daddy came to fetch me with Evon auntie and grandma. Fed and bathed for bubbles, then helped grandma to cut papaya! First time and it was quite fun :)

AM I SELFISH? I think i am.

I asked someone to do something for ME. Which will make people around us think wrongly. I mean, it's meant for me, for my own good. I don't really care about what people will think about me.. Whether am i a FLIRT, BITCH, SLUT or a fucking 3rd party like some people think.. But i didn't care about how others would think about him or how he'd feel about what others say about him. I mean, maybe it'd affect the people around him maybe those that love him? Or maybe those that he love... But i didnt even *&^%ing think about it until Jeremy told me off ytd. He said that i was being selfish and didn't care about his feelings. Am i feeling bad or am i selfish? Selfish.

Oh, and this song came to my mind. Memories ~
Till here.

Gr.

2010-04-12T21:42:00.002+08:00

School
Claudia's house with RD and Sirachar
Woodlands for REC2. (fucking brainless show and its M18 -.-)

Just got home and it was a yappy day today(:
I'll be studying after school from tmr onwards so don't ask me out anymore!

(listening to Vanilla Twilight)
dad : what song is this?
Me : Vanilla Twilight.
dad : oh the guy that sing butterfly one ah?

-.- Fireflies become butterfly. Lmao. Loser dad.

Goodnight sweethearts
x0x0,

SUNDAY.

2010-04-11T15:46:00.004+08:00

This is my AIAI.

Dunno how many yrs and mths alr, but still haven't meet yet. HAha. Just finish talking to claudia leeyinqian. What a sunday huh~ Not very happy but its ok. I will study at home(:

Jeremy was calling me ''lazy girl'' all the way from 11am until now. Just because i told him i was scared to fry an egg so i used the microwave -_- So convinient and it wont burn you :D ! HAha. I won't touch the frying pan anymore lor i swear. I dont wanna scald myself again. Good idea. YAY.

Geraldine,

Will sleep earlier later.
Will sleep earlier later.
Won't go out in the middle of the night.
Won't go out in the middle of the night.
Won't go out in the middle of the night.
Will go to school tmr. ON TIME!

just dont give up im workin it out
please dont give in i wont let you down.

Gonna do my work now. (Im just a phone call away)
Oh, and it seems that my enemies are much closer to me then my friends are huh?
It's EXCITEMENT to me.

you + me .

2010-04-10T23:38:00.003+08:00

I hate people who doubt me esp when i'm fucking tell the truth.
Really regretted telling him. Yea, its stupid. Or m'i stupid?
I won't fuckin give a damn about you anymore

Currently eating oreo, charging my lappy + messaging Jeremy.
Angry = blast music. Haha.

Just reach home not long ago. Went for dinnar at chomp chomp with Jeremy, Jayden + Kelvin + Dennis + Winston (botak boys) HA and the girls, Jac, Nana, Tammy and Stacia just now. They drank and I didn't. No, i did drink, green tea. Then Alex came all the way down from orchard to pass me something random which is my shirt and went back to Orchard._. Sucha nice loving sweet cute handsome guy (dont be too happy Alex) Jeremy sent me home and the rest should be clubbing now :(( See, i said i will not go anymore and i didn't.

*Time spent with you WAS awesome :)

Having a bad headache & i'm damn tired now.
I will study tmr, promise.

L.

2010-04-09T21:50:00.006+08:00

Everything happens for a reason.

Its hard to believe why i actually did that. I might be lying if i say i'm not..
( but i swear what you're seeing isnt what you're thinking )

So today,

I went to school with my claudia baobei, ate with her, went to gym together and webcamming now! Haaaaaha. Everything is with her today :/ Lots of laughter too. We saw a dead pigeon, a lizard and many red ants. Why am i saying this? Cos we hate to see them! Gross.

My ankle is damn pain :{
My heart is hurting.
My mind is in a mess.
I still care about how he feels but he doesn't know.
Have the urge to stop what im doing now.
Gonna sleep soon.
Gonna study later.
Feels like eating strawberry.
Needs to finish reading my Girl With a Pearl Earring.

HA HA. Something claudia's waiting for...

This crazy girl was happily showing me her SEXY leg,
until i told her my brother was looking she screamed and pushed her webcam away.
HAHAAH.

Nice :D

Ending here. Good dream tonight.

Said.

2010-04-07T21:44:00.004+08:00

On second thought, maybe we can be together(:
Its just the matter of time.

Funny how we say we dont care when we actually do.

helpless.

2010-04-06T21:29:00.001+08:00

Yea man, my 'kindergarden' drawing.

-_-

love,

Gave English extra lesson a miss today.. :(
My head was spinning like im on drug, and i was having a tummyache.
Headache + stomach ache = take longer to walk. As if i am pregnant (haha)

Saying this for the last time. Jeremy isnt my boyfriend.
Please don't tag stupid things with a stupid name like 'passer'.
Freaking childish.

-

Me : little boy.
Someone : come my bed i show you i little boy or not.

HAhAhaHAaa. Fuck funny. And he is really a little boy.

Weeezyyy is very cute :/

-
Funny how things contradicts each other yeap.
(:
Blame it on yourself baby cuz' that im not the kind of girl who'd tell someone
i miss or love them even if i love them if they don't. (unless.....)

OH! Im playing hard to get? Or am i hard to for-get?
Yea, laughing at how HARD he tried to GET me?
Yea, please laugh at yourself baby.

Fyi : so what if im playing hard to get? If he loves me, he'd do everything to get. Anyway i wasn't even playing hard to get. I just was just being quiet. Can't take it then don't call yourself a man then(:

You should screw yourself (the guy who tagged me).

Can't

2010-04-05T19:02:00.001+08:00

(Sleepy....)

Already been in this page for more then 30 minutes...

Many things to write off my mind. But my eyes are already closing...
NO. It already shut for a minute. Ok this is how tired i am and bye , will post tmr.
Pictures and all.

(stop acting like you dont have my blog link.)
Haha. People cannot copy you, then you can copy ppl? Please dont be so fake.
Keeping quiet doesnt means that idk anything ok..

Hold on tight.

2010-04-05T00:59:00.002+08:00

Listening the songs you listen to makes me wanna cry baby.
Maybe cos..... I know how you're feeling?
Although we're just friends now but i still wanna let you know that i care about how you feel and i would never let you be unhappy even if i'll have to lie. ZH.

Yea, more tomorrow alright. Gotta sleep now.
School tmr. Sweetdreams sweetie.

xoxo,

Cherrie :D

2010-04-03T18:20:00.006+08:00

Edited this out of boredom. Haha.
I drew it ok!

This boy here is Matthew.
Taken when we were studying yesterday.

January.

Ok thats all! BYEEEE!

Lil Wayne is my new love !
I know you will be asking yourself "why". Basically, he has a cute voice and he looks cute too.
(To me)
And i think guys with cute voices are attractive cute hot handsome and most importantly, i like guys that are cute ! Like him.. :/

My...

A.

2010-04-03T01:50:00.008+08:00

Some studies with Matthew at bishan in the afternoon.
Jeremy's house with ALEXie. Met a new girl called Tammy(:
Cousin's house.
Jeremy's house to pass him a kiss. -_- (ha ha)
Cabbed home.

I just came here to say.........

I will start appreciating things more.

As in, more.

in terms of people and things.
Everything. like mommy's love.

xoxo.

Pictures another day.

Fml.

2010-04-01T20:58:00.007+08:00

Act dumb? I'll do the same.
Talk shit? I'll do the same.

Really hate those shit heads who talk behind people's back.
Once someone tells you SOMETHING, i take it that you're in it too.
If you think i am dumb, then I will just act dumb.

It was pretty sick today. The topics, i mean, was there even a topic? Felt that my life is becoming more and more boring, lifeless.

Its like like a casual occurrence, going to school, talking shit, talking+ listening or either sleeping during lessons, remedial after school, out with my two girls either by train or cab, to hunny's house, amk hub, or j8 to study or walk around aimlessly, burning time away and then go home..

& I've been doing this for the past THREE months.

Is this a simple life of most people? Maybe too much for me. I wanna do what i used to do last time, i wanna study and have more fun. I kept saying that i need to study study study STUDY, but in fact, i've ALREADY been studying alot. Right after school till 7pm at most, 3 to 4 times a week. Am i not studying much? AM I? Maybe it isn't up to my expectations yet. Tell me, what can i do? I cant be studying all the time. I really feel like giving up NOW. I don't wanna be like the past.. ): But it seems like it's getting out of hand.

And it seeems like this song is the bomb now eh? Hahaha.
Ohhh~! Lil Wayne is MUCH cuter then JUSTIN BIEBER! i luv lil Wayne. Weeees!

Till here! I LOVE LIL WAYNEEE :)

2010-03-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

HM?

Maybe he thought that i didnt love him, did i?
Haven't been sleeping much recently. It seems like 24 hours isnt enough for me.

School, out, home, out/online sleep, school.
I've so many things undone. More things to be done...
Where shall i start? I cant study in school for nuts.

Just another day thats gonna end soon. Another 'much happier' day today. Ha-ha. Tried very hard to make myself or rather act to be happy but i was seen through by that 2 bitches including CR. But it got better once the bell rang thanks to the TWO bitches that made me laugh. Haha. Luv you both ok! I know you TWO always read my blog. Muaack ok!

GoodaNdBye readers! Eye bagzxz.

DOPE

2010-03-27T14:19:00.003+08:00

Heyhey^^ Geraldine is back again.

Its saturday and i'm home with my lappy on my bed, falling asleep soon. Oh i was asked to go down to Se7en, velvet recently but i rejected all. Maybe its time for another hangover. Haha. And, i need to R E V I S E. Feel sorry for myself somehow :{ And i will be 'studying' with my hunny and baobei tmr at j8!

Maybe i was just oblivious of everything,
that had happened was happening from the beginning.

It's good if you think it's good? Ha.
It's bad if you think it's bad?
Sometimes even i think that i will drive people crazy. Like some kind of crazy split personality shit.

Maybe up till now, i still wanna see you.
but what about tmr? The day after tmr? I might not even think about you.

You wont be in my heart for long!
You made me cry! Hmpff. Its you. &^%$#@#!

MAJOR HEADACHE.

Gonna rest now. Goodbye.

FAB.

2010-03-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

Things i did today. Today was a bad day.

Vomited + Headache + Cried.

Went to school, lessons was unbearably boring. I was super tired but i still managed to keep myself awake :)

I'll just act. like. nothing. have. happened.

So why did i cry? Actually i felt like crying even before class/school started. A little bit of drama after school here and there. Cried like... A little girl? Reach home, bathed then cried then slept after complaining to P, M, Damien, Jeremy about what happened and Jeremy told Alex._. Then they both called me and make me laugh like a..... Mad girl? (laugh and cry at same time) Haha luv them v.much.

Eyes irritating me now :O

Jeremy : Make my Geraldine cry i make you regret.
Alex : Break my Geraldine heart, i break your lanjiao.
Me : Hahaaaa *sobsob*.

Since im not your everything,
since im not your one and only, and since im just like your other girls,
i rather be nothing to you. And you will too.

sucka.

2010-03-24T23:26:00.001+08:00

Math is a bitch.

I swear.

I hate to go to school more and more. Starting from today.
SOME PEOPLE are just so irritating. GDI.

Hmmpf. Going to bed now so good night.
Happy day tmr :)
Sweetdreams to Geraldine.

Sry?

2010-03-23T21:06:00.000+08:00

study sleep online study sleep.
study sleep online study sleep.
study sleep online study sleep.
study sleep online study sleep.
study sleep online study sleep.

eyes closing already.

I've got the reason to cry, but i just cant cry.
Easy to say sry. Hard to prove it.

I wont care anymore so OK. I WILL JUST STUDY AND SLEEP.
Just don't bother me anymore.

has it all.

2010-03-22T21:30:00.002+08:00

Drink drank not-drunk.

i am very happy! I got my laptop today! Happyhappy. Weeeeee. Sat on 2 running cars(haha) just now. One was super noisy, and the other one wasnt so noisy. Haha. Nicenice. I like i love. Thanks jiejiee.

Only drank milk for th whole day including ytd. No appetite lor :(
Ytd night went to meet someone till 11+++++ ~ Tsktsk. Hm? Wasnt really happy just now because my phone was D--m quiet. 20, 30 messages? Im very tired now. Kukubird. Then some more........ someone...... sometwo.... Piss me off man.

I know that im not like her, im not those who will cling myself onto guys. And i wont do that even for you. I wont force someone to do things they dont like. I wont do smth i dont like. Yea, i dont even think that you'd read this and even if you do i bet you wont know that this is for you. So yupps, im not gonna care anymore. After this post. Pictures tomorrow or smth. headache heartache.''

taken quite sometime ago :) i like!

▲

2010-03-21T14:29:00.004+08:00

Hello love, i miss you.

I was such a bitch to think that he had already forgotten me. HAHA.
I WAS WRONG!!!! Hehe. Happy but i dont love him already. Like Alex said,

"walao you damn CB sia Geraldine. People love you, you dont want them.
People dont love you, you scold them. "

Damn kaobei. Haaaa. Whatever luh. Maybe i am. So i said..

"will you be with someone you dont love? "

Wakakaakaka. Seriously, you can keep your comments to yourself -.-

Back to the point. Wouldn't you be happy if your ex boyf still loves you. Haha. Silly silly just say you'll be happy. Hahahaa. Idc anyway! I AM HAPPY :D

And i know who i love but idk if he loves me or not. Arrrgh hahaha.
Im keeping this secret in my pocket :/ I wont tell you~~ So dont need to guess :PPP

Grandma : bubbles is a clever dog.
OBVIOUSLY LUHHH..!!!!!

Okey, im going to sleep already. Having headache recently.
And there is school tmr! I wanna use the F word man. But i wont! :DD

Importance or option?

2010-03-21T00:45:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone :)

Geraldine just came back from a longgggg study with D. From 1pm till 10! Wow.
What a good girl. Heeheee. Actually it was D 'studying' i didnt study at all. Hahahaha.
I know im still a good girl^^ And the weather was....... super cold today. Grr.

Ok, i need to get bed asap. Not meeting Jeremy already. Super tired.
From today onwards Geraldine will be a good girl!!!

Lets just be happy. Let me be happy.
Stay this way.

*And we're just friends.

CANdy.

2010-03-19T03:24:00.001+08:00

I like it when people hug me, but i wont hug people i don't like.
I dont know if it makes sense but will you hug someone you don't like?
(:

Do we look alike?

Haha so, went to yck to meet Jeremy earlier on, alex, derick, nana and dennis were there too. Did i become quiet? Hahaaa. Many people says s. Jeremy sent me home, talk talk a bit. Oh! I kept feeling tired.. Mmmm... Feeling tired again :(

Oh. (luv)

If a guy leaves you, don't bother going back for him.

If he comes back to you, it simply means that he got tired of other girls.

I was watching this and started laughing with abi.

Alright its bedtime!
xoxo.

Nonsensical.

2010-03-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

Peekchas :D

:)

Bridget.

my bear bear slippers :D

(months back)

Lazy to blog much. Heee.
<3

Laughs.

2010-03-13T14:50:00.003+08:00

Tsk. Headache. Everyday headache.
:(

don know whether i should go out not! Blah.

Oh, i played L4D and counterstrike ytd! Hahaha. Not so fun.

i miss him so who cares?
dont let your mind run until so so so far ok. I've no boyfriend.
Dont think so much and say so much.

ok bye!

JEREMY

2010-03-10T23:20:00.001+08:00

Just got home not lnog ago. Around 1045. Happy today(:
Im very tired now, but i still gotta say

I LOVE J ALOT. My Claudia and ruodan too.

Ohhhh and claudia is gonna... omg. THAT UGLY VIDEO OF ME.
): Maybe i will post it once she sends me. Haha.

I can be found in school tmr^^.
Yesss, im going to school to complete my d&t tmr :)
Sleeping soon. Body itchy still. Kukubird... Fuck~

*i dont respect people who stares at me, who are like jealous of all the girls, people who doesnt respect themselves doing things like THAT, and obviously people who doesnt respect me. I dont give a f-shit if you dont like me or what i say in my blog. This is me. Im a girl you detest? You're one of the girls i hate. Same. Play stupid with me. I love it.

2010-03-10T15:01:00.000+08:00

Currently at Claudia's house chatting on msn with my HUNNY.

Me : goon doo
(claudia : she dont know what is goon doo de) *expected.
hunny : what goon doo.

LOL. Damn funnyyyy!

ALright going to yck now. Byebye.

freaking out.

2010-03-09T12:01:00.003+08:00

Eating Oreo, chatting on msn & facebook, talking on phone (:

Lcb CLAUDIA LEE using Siracha's acc. Haha.

Today school. Swim. Sauna. Home. Claudia and Siracha.
Fun, happy, tired. HAha. Having rashes now. Nabeh.

Phone low batt from morning, 70+ messages came when i turn on, messages still coming in from someone, one word irritating. Reaching 100 already. Sometimes it feels goood to receive many messages FROM THE PERSON YOU WANT/EXPECT or LOVE. But not someone who irritates you. Spamming your phone with so many messages every single minute or two maybe five. I wont care how many messages you send, what you say and i will just fucking mark and DELETE them all. OK. And im not being bad, if you know how it feels.

Going to my baobei's house tmr. Gonna do my homework and im so tired.

Remember to bathe after you play with dirty girls (:
I wont hate you, i will remember you. For teaching me this.

(Funny how guys change in less then 5 minutes just to get you.
To prove how much they can do for you cos they 'love you'. Laugh at the world pls.)

Goodnight.

2010-03-07T12:21:00.001+08:00

Im bored here and since you're here just read.

Didnt go out ytd because i woke up and went back to sleep till evening~ Zac came over to watch soccer with my bro in the middle of the night. Damn stupid can. Running after 1 ball for hours. LOL. Then Jeremy came over to find me at 4 and we went for breakfast at mac. Heeeeeeee! Was very tired when i reach home and my bro was on my bed pushed him one side and slept beside him. Haha. And he turn off my phone when i was asleep cos it was too noisy._. BoOOoO. My bro is damn, hot i swear. CLAUDIA!!!

" I still think about my ex girlf sometimes. "
"But i love my girlf"

Wonder if he still thinks about me (:

Haha. That was what nelson told me. He also told me that we're all stubborn people which its quite true. People like us know that we wont get anything out of having many girl/boyfs, we just wanna have fun, we wanna play, we just wanna play after being serious in a relationship. Wondering when we will be serious again, but we just dont wanna stop playing cos we're too used to it. So im stopping now.

Im tired again, meeting Felicia at 5.
Ihatemylife :(
Hate to go out recently. Just wanna sleep all the way.

IM ALWAYS NOT ME IN MY BLOG.

Berriieee.

2010-03-05T23:58:00.001+08:00

Chatting @ msn, from 11 people and now 3 people left. Blah.

Cross Country at SengKang, was very hot over there though i didnt run, bishan for Alice in Wonderland with my hunny and my baobei, late for the show. Hahaa Hunny slept throughout the whole movie then went for lunch with clau, shall not elaborate anymore as im very tired.

And i was bitten by a mosquito :(
Gonna study tmr! Heee. Might be meeting Jeremy tmr? So many days never see him alr.

Haha. I love this friend of mine.

Everything in my blog is fake if you think so, i dont care about it cos i think its fake too ^^
You choose to believe.

Tracy took a pack of tampon out, then it ended up one my guy friend's hand.

Friend : eh mrs kuma, do you use this?
Mrs kuma : whats that?
Friend : tampon.
Mrs Kuma : eh, dont be disgusting la. Where you get that.
Friend : I found it on the floor when i was running.

Was laughing like mad.
ok ! bye. Eyes closing already. Goodnight.

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2010-03-03T19:13:00.001+08:00

dont trust a person too much.
Hate to cry over smth like this. Its plain stupid.

Im at Honey's house now and HAPPY BIRTHDAY honeyyy!<3
Haha i know you love my cake. I love it too. Hehehee.

Thanks for cheering me up babes.
Muaack

Tired.

2010-03-02T19:25:00.001+08:00

I'm tired of everything. I tried to study, i really tired.
I told myself i must study, but in the end?
I just go to school, waiting for hours to pass,
for the bell to ring and run out of school happily.
And when in out of school, i'll be blaming myself for not studying.
I know that the problem lies with me, but i'll change.
Time is all i need. Time to be a brand brand new Geraldine(:

I'll forget about relationships even when he is back.
I just wanna study and be happy.

No more movies (after AliceInWonderland:)
No more shopping.
No more playing.
I wont let anyone affect me from today onwards.

Studies will be my first priority from now.
Sleeping will be the second :p

HAPPPPY!

2010-03-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

Geraldine is happy because,

- i spend almost $400 on shopping ytd with my sisters at J8! Incredible. The place i've never really shopped at before though i go there almost everyday. Hahaahaha. Bought like 10 tees, 4 pants and a wallet from M)PHOSIS, a wallet from Charles&Keith, 9 tops from Cotton on and some lingeries from cotton on body. Haha. And some bird nest thing.

- im baking now (:
- Plus talking to my favourite people on msn (:
- i cant fucking smell or taste dont know if its good or bad but im still happy.
- Im tired and im happy. Occupied.

My pet so cute^^

Wooah!

Kena scolded :(

Ok! Shall carry on with my baking.
<3 bye!